gd friday isnt so gd after all..once again, the score for my mid term test for MLE is below avg..same as last sem for EG1108…y??it is happening again..argh…feeling so sad n disappointed when I have put so much time for it…more than the rest..haiz..it is at these low pts tt I think of how life wld be with u
today suddenly had this thot…it’s not I have not met nice gals along the way…but it’s just that I did not have a chance to get to know them better and that is a pity and my loss..haha..juz a thot.
watched the golden path..in the show today, both jin long and kaida lost their love..which set me thinking..its not easy to forgo something tt is long in yr heart…but looking at the brighter side, losting something isnt all tt bad…it means one less attachment to yr heart….one got to be ruthless…ruthless not to others but oneself..do what u dun feel doing:)
hahaha….DQ is not going to let himself down again..nvr..he is thinking who knows he feels and what to do…sob sob…work hard and get yr degree and work for yr future…tt is what his brains tells him but what about his heart?..he is ruthless and “stabbing his heart” and let his heart bleed till the last drop…yay…his brain won..DQ is laughing at his fate…
today, some1 told me something…can already sense its coming ..kinda of expected it…actaully Mr Rush told me abt my personality..believe me…I m trying hard to change..I really hope I can get out of it…perhaps, I have really experienced more injustice more than the rest..for one, I really dun see y some of the scholars deserve to be scholars..all scholar system is screwed, juz based on scores…omg…thru my life in HR, I have seen nothing but injustice to pple who have performed but due to not being a scholar, have lost out…perhaps its gd to keep a faint hope tt it is gd…haiz…
blogging from my room in pgp now…staying in pgp has made me realised tt I am really a family person..tho I may be harsh at times with my family..v demanding and stuff..but I really like staying at home…familiar gnds..haha..not having to move stuff here and there…really thinking of staying back at home nxt sem..see how ba:)
happened to be at Bishan…walked down the path nxt to Bishan MRT tt I used to walk in the 4 years in RI…lots of memories just filled my head…times when we juz had NCC training and walking home after a gd meal at kampung istimewa..nice fried rice with the biggest chicken drumsticks tt u will see..times when after normal sch, walking and thinking..times when we will all go to jade hse to buy jade..hehe..only we know what is tt..passed by jade hse too..changed to a game card trading shop..it was nice…
met up with my OAC friends.it was enlightening..suddenly realising why I m sort of distant from the exco guys and the chiong kias..from the way they describe the gals we met up yesterday, I am seriously taken aback, appalled and disgusted by their comments..the gals are not the prettiest gals on earth but definitely not as bad as wat they commented..I once read somewhere or watch a show…it said..superificial beauty can at most last 30 yrs but internal beauty will last a last time..I juz hope tt they will all grow to see this…see pple as who they really r..this time, I really see the real pix..nvr wrong from my 1st impression..seriously aft so much thinking, without or with is only a matter of perspective..both with pros and cons tt one muz learn to face and handle.
Lots of ups and downs lately..I was lost lately..totally clueless at what I m doing..but now its over…yay…I sincerely hope tt we can still be friends..real friends..not acquaintance…for its seldom tt I see so much potential in a person..but then again..I probably dun even know..yup..tt is y I want to find out if I think is what is real…here is my new wish list.
I wish I wish I wish for:
1. In dean’s list for all the semesters in NUS
2. A wonderful and exciting Life in NUS
3. A Mazda 3
4. A Condo at The Nexus
5. A person who is after the same rainbow’s end
: )